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August 31, 2014

{ #faceqapp Fun aka I'm Bored}

I can handle having the kids gone for a night maybe part of the next day, but this will be night number 3 tonight and I am not a fan.

I'm getting quite a bit done. I washed my sheets, got caught up on the laundry, and washed Owens sleeping bag that stays on our bedroom floor.

D and I have gone out to eat 3 times too! We had dinner at Chili's on Friday then stopped for Little Caesar's on Saturday, then had KFC tonight lol. We are getting a small taste of what it will be like 11 years from now when its just us lol. We don't mind it.

I do miss the small people though. I usually always have at least Owen with me on the weekends even if Dawn and Gaige are off with the grandparents. Mommy did need a break this weekend though. And that's OK. Every mom needs to know her limits and how much BS she can take before she jumps off a bridge lol.

While I was stalking some youtubers on Twitter I saw that a few were using this new app called "face q". I've gone a little crazy with it lol, which is obvious because 3 of these pics I'm sharing with you are the kids. But like I said the kids aren't here so yeah..I have nothing note exciting to do with my time. You should all download it and post it to my Facebook or mention me on Twitter.

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 22}

What do you do when you're home alone?
Well for starters I like to take a nice long uninterrupted bath..and poop lol. Cause for real those 2 things tend to be my most popular activities to interrupt.
I walk around in just my t-shirt and underwear. Why? Because who cares if I have clothes on when I'm the only one here? Nobody that's who. The dogs do look at me funny though sometimes.
I eat what I want. I don't have to hide with a Popsicle. I don't have to get someone else whatever I'm eating. Its a little awesome.
I do the boring stuff too. I clean and do laundry. I love to clean in the mornings so that its clean a few hours before the kids get home.
I do face peels. There is nothing I love more than sitting and watching Girls or old episodes of Sex and the City while waiting for a facial peel to dry so I can pull it off. Its kind of amazing. And there's no one here to say "mom! What's on your face?!"
Sometimes I don't put on pants. And I don't see anything wrong with that :).
So that's what I do when I'm home alone.

August 30, 2014

{Teacher calls, Motorcycle rides, & Freezer Meals}

Dawn got in trouble at school the other day. She was pulling the same crap she did last year with her teacher and this year they aren't going to baby her. So she's grounded for her behavior and for throwing aassive fit because she didn't want to do her homework. She literally sat at the kitchen table from 3:30 to 8:30 when all she had to do was a cross word puzzle lol. I wasn't shocked because we went over this all last year. I'm not excited about the rest of the year. At all. The girl hates being told she can't do something. I don't know where she gets it because she gets told no all the time lol. I just hope she settles down eventually.

D and I got rid of the kids for the weekend. Its a rare occasion that I don't have at least one kid with me. That one kid being Owen. But this weekend D and I were supposed to go on a group bike ride with some of his friends from work. After looking at the forecast though we decided not to go. We didn't want to get caught in the rain. So instead today we ended up going to a leather store for D to get some stuff for a couple projects. And then to Bath & Body Works to get more bulbs for my wall flowers. We also went to The Burger Barge 2 for lunch. The food wasn't horrible but it wasn't amazing either. I got a tenderloin but honestly the one I get from Our Inn Place. We took the long way home :). I love being on the bike!

When we got home I got to work on the freezer meals D asked me to try this pay day. It took me a couple hours to get it done but they are now sitting in my freezer. I didn't do the beef ones because I forgot the meat. But the rest will be enough. And I have enough chicken, pork chops, and sausage to last a month lol. I'm kind of excited to try them all out. I'm hoping the kids will find something they like other than pizza and mac & cheese lol.

August 24, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 21}

What is your biggest fear?

Why is this always a question? *Sigh*

My biggest fear ever...is probably having something happen to one of my kids or D and I can't do anything about it.

I have this horrible thought that D is going to get hurt at work, and I'll get a call about the time he should be coming home and the person on the other end is gonna tell me he's hurt or worse. The worst part is that his job is pretty dangerous. And a few years ago a guy actually did die and D had to actually call and tell me about it because he didn't want me to hear about it on the news. I had my grandma and my mom calling me to make sure it wasn't him. Which they should have known that if it was him they would have been my first calls lol.

And my kids..I am so terrified something is going to happen to one of them. There are so many crazy people in the world today and I don't want to become a statistic. Ya know? I know where they are and what they're doing pretty much every single minute. If they're not with me they're with people I trust. End of story. I know that I would completely break down and die if anything happened to them.

Those are my biggest fears.

August 23, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 20}

What do you collect?

Well I guess I'll start with the most obvious collection. Backstreet Boys memorabilia. I have so much BSB stuff that I can't even display it all. Not that D would let me anyway lol. Someday I hope to make our room a small "mom cave" where I can display my things without judgment. I went down to the basement (where I'm forced to store my precious collection) and pulled out my tote. In found that I have more that I thought I did.

 The backstreet boys comic book and a Nick Carter news letter lol.

Framed poster 

 Valentines, Stickers, Books, Magazines

A backstreet book! 

 A 1999 Calendar. I also have a 2000 one.

 The tour that Burger King sponsored. Still have the toys that came in the came in the kids meals. I went every day for weeks just to make sure I got them all. Side note: I don't even like burger king.

 More goodies. Including a watch with case, greeting cards, and another book.

 The book from the previous pic. Along with folders I used in HS and couldn't bare to throw away. 4 of them are full of posters.

A folder full of magazines with them on the cover.

My other collection is something I don't collect anymore but did when I was a kid. I thought it was worth a small mention. Yes. Those are Barbie's lol. And I've got another one somewhere that my dad gave me. She's my favorite. But I haven't been able to find her in years. :(






Then we have the collection that meant the most when I was a kid. And I still search for them all over but never find the originals. I love them and I always thought that when I had a little girl I'd set it up for her and we could play together. But honestly I don't trust Dawn with it. She has always destroyed anything I gave her that was mine when I was a kid. I couldn't take the chance with this stuff. I have pretty much the whole town I think.


August 22, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 19}

5 Blogs You Read on a Regular Basis and Why?
Honestly I only really read fashion blogs these days. Why? Because I feel like mom blogs have gotten so far off topic. You can't get your blog read unless you're giving stuff away all the time and doing a ton of reviews and have sponsored posts. I'm sorry but I don't want to read about all that stuff. I want to read about parenting and how you're dealing with it. A few reviews are fine. If you found a product you love/hate tell me about it! But don't make that the only thing you talk about.
Anyway, so the main blogs I read are..

Check in the Mirror- I first found this blog when I was watching her youtube channel. I think she's gorgeous :)

Fluer De Force- Another one that I started watching before I started reading. I absolutely love her style!

Makeup By TiffanyD- She is not only gorgeous but she doesn't seem like the type to talk about something in a positive light because she's been paid to. I know a lot of youtubers/blogger do that and it gets on my nerves!! It's also turned into a bit of a mom blog because she's expecting her first baby :).

Polish & Pearls- I love this girls nail art tutorials!! 

And the last one is not a blog is a vlog. But it's the only "mommy" thing I watch anymore. 

Gabe and Jess- I started following her when she was pregnant with the twins and I just couldn't stop watching! I think she's amazing.

August 21, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 18}

I'm so sorry I haven't been keeping up with this challenge. Not that it matters too much because I don't think too many people read it lol. But with back to school and all that jazz, it just hasn't been on a front burner for a while. But it's back, it's late, but it's back!

Where are you happiest?

This has got to be the easiest question I've ever been asked lol. The place I am happiest is without a doubt, on the back of a motorcycle.

I have been riding since I was little. In fact, the earliest memory I have as a child is being on the front of my dads bike. I don't know what make or model and I don't know what ever happened to it because he hasn't had it for years. But I do know it was orange. I was probably 3-4 and he would put me in front of him on the gas tank, I could lay down on it and listen to the motor running and do that "uhhh" noise kids like to do. I don't have a lot of happy memories that include my dad, so this is a big one. I guess you could say that riding is in my blood.


Here you see me, probably 3-4, sitting on the back of my grandpa Dwights bike. My uncle is the other male sitting there. I was born to be on a bike, I know it. I'm pretty sure every man in my family has a bike or did or have one at one point in time. My uncles both ride, my grandpa's both rode, and now my brother and my sisters boyfriend ride. We are a riding family.

In fact, when D and I first started messaging each other online, and he asked me out all he had to do was bring up that he had a bike and I was sold lol. It could have been the shittiest date ever. He could have been a real douche bag. But I was going to be on the back of a motorcycle for at least a few hours and that was worth it for me! Turns out he wasn't a douche and the date was amazing ;).


We even took our first vacation alone together, on the bike. Which was slightly amazing and I honestly can't wait to do it again.

It doesn't matter what kind of crappy day I'm having or what is happening around me. On the back of a bike, I am happy. I'm relaxed.

On the back of a bike is where I am absolutely the happiest.


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August 20, 2014

{1 Day Down! #firstdayofschool}

This afternoon I've got 3 exhausted kids.

We started off today on a pretty good note. Everyone got up and got dressed with little to no fight. I predict this will not last more than a couple weeks. The older 2 got breakfast and such on their own. I didn't wake Owen up until about 7:30 because he doesn't have to be at school when they do.



We were unsure of where Dawns bus stop was going to be, so D took her up there to make sure she was getting on the right bus. As they were coming to the stop the bus pulled up (6min early) and then as they were running to catch it, D said the driver looked at him, shut the door and drove off. He was supposed to pick up 3 kids at that stop, he didn't pick up any. So that was great. D ended up taking her to school and calling the school to let them know that it happened. We'll see what happens tomorrow.

Gaige was off on his bike. He made it to school fine, as I knew he would. He hates riding the bus. The kids tend to pick on him, which pisses him off and then he gets in trouble for defending himself against them. Which in turn pisses me and D off. It's just best if we let him ride his bike lol.

Owen was a lot easier to get to school than last year. We got there about 20min early so we could take our time and I could make sure he knew where his class room was. He did great! He knew right where to go (and the fact that the guy who was student teacher last year in his class, has a class across the hall now, is a great help). We found his desk and he sat down with his book bag. There were no tears or fits or screaming. It was calm and I knew he was nervous but it helped that he knew his friend Jack would also be in his class this year. I hugged him and told him I'd pick him up after lunch. Which is easier than telling him later. He knows that "after lunch" it will be almost time to go home.

We were also told this year we will get to walk with them to their class for the first 3 days this year. Last year we could only walk the first day and the 2nd day they had teachers waiting to drag my kindergartner off screaming because he was scared to death. I think we all remember that. I can only imagine that they had a bunch of pissed off parents last year and that is why they changed it. In reality, I don't think they did that when Gaige was in that school at all. They let us walk them to class the whole first week. As it should be. They're nervous and I'm nervous. I want to know my kid knows where to go and who his teacher is and that's not asking too much.


This afternoon I picked him up and asked him how his day was, he said it was good :). He likes his new teacher and he did all kinds of fun things. I have to say I was a little more concerned about him than the other 2 but I guess I didn't need to be lol. He had a good time. He ate his snack (gold fish and water) and some of his lunch (a bite of pb sandwich, a cheese stick, chips...he didn't touch the orange he insisted I pack though).


Gaiges day went pretty well. He didn't come home complaining so I'm taking that as a good sign lol. He doesn't like to give specifics.

Dawns day was not so great. She had a lot of changes this year and they are proving to be a bit much for her to handle. She said that she wasn't sure about her schedule for starters, so she didn't know where to go. She ended up just following her "team" from class to class. Then she couldn't get her locker open so a teacher came and unlocked it with the key. D said she was crying on the bus. And I know she was upset and frustrated because she was quiet when she was telling us about it. If she was just being pissy she would have been yelling. So in all, she did not have a good first day :(. I'm hoping tomorrow is better because it would suck to have the first few days be bad. It'll set her tone for the whole year, and I'm not wanting to listen to the I hate school crap. Those of you with kids who have had a bad first week know what I'm talking about.

I'm hoping that everyone has a better day tomorrow.

Did your kids start today? What was their first day good?

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August 19, 2014

{Meet Your Teacher Night}

Every year the night before the kids go back to school the district has a meet your teacher night where as the name would suggest the parents and kids get to meet their teachers lol.

Usually the teachers talk about what ton expect from the year and you get to ask questions and such.

So far Owens teachers have not done the whole talking thing. They give you papers to fill out and a couple explaining what their classroom is like and that's it. Its slightly annoying because I like to get to know what they're like as teachers. I literally talked to his teacher for 2min and that was it. And that was just to tell her I was done with the paper work lol.

Gaiges teacher did a speech. Much of which we've heard already last year. We sat through it though. And then when D went up to ask which desk Gaige should put his supplies in, she just said "we don't have assigned seats but there are lockers he can put his things in" then turned away to talk to someone else. Um..what? Lol I was not impressed with her at all. I have a feeling I won't be liking dealing with her. Upside is that the teacher he had last year for math and reading will still be pulling him out this year. She will also be helping him with testing and such. I love her.

Dawns is in middle school so she has more than one teacher. I only met the homeroom teacher briefly but she seems OK. They did their speech and such. The only complaint I have is that their schedules are hard to navigate. I didn't even understand it so I can't imagine how a 12yr old will. But she will have to get help I suppose. She has a locker too which she is really excited about lol.

We shall see how tomorrow goes.

August 18, 2014

{3 Posts Today..what??}

I honestly don't know why I'm blogging right now. I don't really have anything to talk about. I'm just bored. Everyone else is in bed..as they should be its 11:30pm.

I'm sitting here watching E! News. I don't know why. Everyone keeps bringing up Robin Williams and it makes me cry a little. Growing up he was definitely one of my favorite actors. He was so hilarious and I loved every movie he made that I saw. D and I were actually just trying to explain Mrs. Doubtfire to Cassie when she was living with us. And my sister and I often quote the movie, the scene where he's interviewing over the phone forntje nanny position "I don't work with the males cause I used to BE one" lmao! Gets me every time! *Sigh* Anyway, that's depressing.

D said he might finish the shower wall tomorrow. Its literally been missing the front of the shower (where the faucet is) since we put it in. Its making me crazy at this point. I don't want to look at that while I'm relaxing in the tub. That's not relaxing at all. Blah. The sink is going to be a pain to put in though. There's no stud on the other wall where we want to move it so he'll have to rip out dry wall I guess. I don't know. I do know that I'm over starting projects without being done with the last one. We have the carpet in the kids rooms torn up and the walls half ass torn down. And we need to figure out some storage in the closet he tore out lol. We need to get this shit done!!

Random..I just heard a kid in the kitchen. And so it begins.

I guess I should go to bed. My eye balls are getting heavy.

Goodnight kids!

{Starting Another School Year}

Tomorrow we meet the kids teachers. I'd be lying if I said I'm not a little sad that the summer went by so fast. But at the same time, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't glad I don't listen to them fight all the time anymore lol.

Owen is going into 1st grade. This is hard for me to believe. He was just my little nitty baby attached to my boob not that long ago. And now he's big and going to school with the big kids. *sigh* I bought him a cute new Lego bookbag and a matching lunch box. And today I picked up a Mater shirt for $3 at Walmart. He was less than excited when I told him it was for the first day of school lol. He said "I'm not wearing that the first day of school!!" We shall see who wins this fight small man. In actuality he isn't verynexcited about going this year. I just hope we don't have a repeat of last year. I don't think my nerves can take it. My only hope is that some of the boys he became friends with last year are in his class this year. I think that would probably take the edge off quite a bit.

Gaige is going into 5th grade. I talk about it not feeling like Owen is old enough but I think it shocks me that he is old enough to be on 5th even more. He's not excited about going at all. He has never really liked school and that's fine. Neither did I really. But he will have the same recourse teacher that he had last year. I think he really liked her, even though he said he didn't lol. She has really helped him quite a bit with his reading and helping find ways to teach him that work rather than making him learn the way she was teaching. I think he is more excited about showing off the book bag I got him than he is to actually go back to school lol.

Dawn is going into 7th grade. I'm not at all shocked that she is ready for this grade though. She has been behaving like a tween for a while now. Making everyone in the house crazy. She is excited to get a locker but not excited about having to dress for P.E. She loves the idea of being in junior high. I got her a cute Madden Girl back pack from Ross and she was ridiculously happy about it lol. She had to have the most supplies of anyone though which surprised me a little. In Jr high I just needed notebooks, a binder, and something to write with. Same with HS. She is quite nervous about having a lock on her P.E. locker also. I told her its not a big deal. I started using one in 5th grade. She loves the idea of having more than one teacher this year but doesn't want to get lost.

In all I think we are going to have a good year. Stay tuned tomorrow cause I'll most likely have pictures from "meet the teacher" night.

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 17}

Why and when did you start blogging?

Those who grew up with me or watched me grow up know that I've been writing since I was little. I've always had a pen and paper in my hands. No matter if I was journaling or writing a story I was always writing something. So when my grandparents got a computer when I was a freshman in high school (that's showing my age isn't it?) I began journaling on there.

Before too long I'd discovered that through AIM you could have a little website, so I made one. I wrote about everything. I wrote about boys and my family. It didn't matter what really. After I had Gaige I began writing about him and our adventures. It was an outlet for me to be able to talk things through without having to actually voice my concerns about things I wasn't comfortable talking about. I wish I still had that AIM account. I'd love to go back and re-read everything I wrote lol.

When D and I started dating I kept writing. It wasn't until 2004 I believe that I started actually blogging on MySpace. I talked about pretty much everything exactly the same as I did on my AIM journal. I blogged all the way through my pregnancy with Owen which was a drama filled time for me and I liked to know that I could talk things out with myself, even if no one else read what I was writing. Before I opened my very first blog on blogger, I saved my MySpace blogs. I still have them actually. I read them every now and then.

I love to write. I love to read the comments people leave me (should people ever decide to comment lol). It's amazing to connect with other people like that.





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August 17, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 16}

What's Your Biggest Accomplishment?

This is easy.


I made these 2 heathens. That is a pretty great accomplishment :) Especially since I didn't even want kids until I got pregnant with Gaige lol. They are by far my greatest accomplishments. I don't think there is anything that could possibly top being a mom to them.

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{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 15}

List 10 things that make you Awesome

What a weird thing to want me to blog about lol. But OK, lets see if I can do this.

1. I am extremely giving. I love to give. I love to see the look on peoples faces when I get them something they weren't expecting but wanted, or when I do something for them that they weren't expecting. I love that.

2. I know when to keep my mouth shut. Not really a common thing these days with people running around behind other peoples backs.

3. I'm a mom. That in itself makes me awesome. Just ask my kids ;). Well..ask the little one, the older 2 don't think I'm as awesome as he does anymore lol.

4. I can bake. I mean, I'm really good at it lol.

5. I can remember the lyrics to songs I've only heard a few times. I remember going somewhere with my grandparents and their friends at a very young age, and I was singing along with country music playing in the restaurant. But don't ask me to remember an appointment or someones phone number, because I can't do that lol.

6. I make really good tacos. Just saying.

7. D says I'm awesome because I bring him lunch at work lol.

8. I'm awesome because I don't care if you think I'm awesome lol.

9. I'm awesome at advice.

10. I'm awesome because I just am.

Is that a good list? Probably not. I'm no good at things like that.


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August 16, 2014

{Changes}

I've given a lot of thought to this, and I think it's time for me to change up this blog a little bit. No one ever comments, I know someone is reading it but since no one comments I feel more like I'm talking to myself than possibly other people lol. So I thought I would shake things up a little bit and do a bit of a rebrand. Since I'm struggling with my back the last couple of days, why not take the time laying in bed, to change what needs to be changed.

Not just the design of the blog will change. Pretty much everything about it will change. Including the name. I've already picked one out ;). I just wanted to give you (whoever you are) a heads up so that when you see me screwing up the layout or you can't see something, it's because of the change.

In the mean time you can check out any of my social media sites to see what I'm up to. And I'll still be attempting to keep up with my blogging challenge. It shouldn't take me more than a few days to get everything the way I want it. Then again, it might take longer lol. So sit tight and bare with me! :)

You could do me a huge favor while you wait for me to unveil the new awesomeness, and that is share share share! Share my facebook and twitter, let people know I'm here if you read me often.

Until next time!

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August 15, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 14}

What's on your iPod?

I'm assuming they're wanting to know what songs I might have, but I don't have an iPod for starters, and second it would take me hours to type out every song on my phone right now. That is the beauty of my Galaxy S3 having an SD card ;). For our trip I just loaded all the music on my laptop onto my phone. There was no way I was spending 3hrs on the bike without my tunes! So I figured since I don't have an iPod I'd just do a "what's on my phone" instead. So here we go!

I guess we'll start with my lock screen. Which is a random picture I found a while back. I usually have a pattern lock on it because it tends to unlock and open apps in my purse if I don't do that. Plus, I don't need the kids getting into my phone all the time and changing things. Which has happened. But because I couldn't seem to take a screen shot with the lock on it, I took it off for the purposes of this post.


Moving on to my home screens..

When you push my home button, this is what you see. I've got another random BSB image on there for my background. And then at the very top (the teen mom thing) is actually Google now. It's pretty useful and usually says the weather.

Next (starting left to right on the top row), I have Swarm which is a foursquare app- I don't use it too much cause I check in on Facebook, Instagram- I am constantly on here, Pinterest- Another app I'm always on. Then we have the Google Play app, Google Chrome, Youtube, the stock camera that comes with the phone. On the very bottom are the "dock" icons. I've got my phone app, Facebook, Twitter, Hangouts which I use for my texting as well because I like it better than the stock texting app, and then the app drawer.


 In the next row I have 4 folders. Getting Skinny has myfitnesspal and true value diary (a weight watchers app), Blog has my blogger app and my facebook page app. Shopping has my bank app, Amazon, Ulta, Calculator, Sale Calculator, Cartwheel app for Target, and Wunderlist.


Then there's the Games folder. It has Diner Dash, Cooking Dash, Wedding Dash, Hotel Dash, Fashion Story, Restaurant Story, Tiny Tower, Kitchen Scramble and Design this Home. I don't play them all all the time though. I'm obsessed with Kitchen Scramble right now though! I'll move on from it as soon as it gets boring lol.

Moving on to the 2 other home screens, if you swipe left I've got my Calender on one side which is so useful! Any time I make an appointment I go right in there and put it in my phone. It helps me stay on top of things. I also already have the entire school calender already put in. From the first day to the last day. Quite handy.

When you swipe right it's less exciting. I've got my music player, the built in flash light which comes in handy all the time, and my data usage thing.


If you click on my app drawer this is what you'll see. I'm just going to the ones that aren't completely obvious lol. Why waste all that time right?



 (above) Month Pal is a period tracker. Every girl should have one on her phone I think. Lets me know when I should start freaking out lol. Then Aviary is a photo editing app. Ringdroid is a ringtone maker and I like it! I download it with every new phone I get. Streampix is like Netflix for Comcast customers. Skyward is an app that lets me see the kids grades and if they're missing assignments and such. It comes in pretty handy through out the school year.
 AVG is my anti-virus app. That is the first thing I download every single time I get a new device. Instaweather I don't use this too much but it's pretty cool. It's just puts the weather on a picture you take a post to instagram.
 Repost is to repost instagram pictures without taking a screen shot. Live Nation is where I get my concert tickets. Astro Player is so I can take books I've downloaded and converted to mp3 and listen to them. They'll save my place like audible does and all that jazz. Snapchat my sister is the only one that sends me anything on there lol. Trulia I'm obsessed with looking for another house, even though we aren't looking to move for a long time lol. Same with Zillow.
 Smile Mom is a community of moms. Expedia is what we use to book our hotel rooms for vacation. We've used it a few times now and it's never lead us to a gross hotel. The places are usually pretty nice. Friendcaster is alternative to the Facebook app. I'm signed in to Gaige and Dawn on mine so that I get their notifications and such too. Shopkick I've never used lol. Same with Food Planner. I'll have to let you know what I think of them when I actually use them lol.

So aside from showing you my entire gallery (which I'm not doing) and going through all my music (also not doing lol) that's what's on my phone :).

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August 14, 2014

{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 13}

Do you have regrets?
First thing I thought of when I read this was the guy from We are the Millers. Lmao. 

I'm going to be honest there are a lot of things I regret about the choices I've made in my 31yrs. I've made many bad ones. I've made some good ones. I've had a lot of the "wtf was I thinking?!" moments. 

One thing I really regret was not trying harder in school. I'm not just talking about my grades. Which sucked. But also about the fact that I didn't join single thing when I was in school. I always wanted to do cheer or something like that, but I didn't figure I'd be able to so I didn't even attempt it. That's just one example though. I didn't try with anything in school. Not to make friends (I stuck with the ones that I've always had and didn't really branch out too much) not to date (not that I knew anyone looking to date me), I didn't do anything that I always thought I would. High school is supposed to be fun..my experience was less than that. Kinda sucks looking back.

I really regret most of the guys I dated lol. I don't regret what they taught me though. I learned what I do not want in a husband that's for sure. I also learned what I was willing to put up with. But I certainly wish I had waited until I was more mature to start dating. The guys I was picking there for a while were just...douche bags lol. Blah.

I regret not ever finishing a damn story I was writing. Ever. 

There are just so many things I could think of that I regret doing or not doing. Saying or not saying. But when it comes down to it, all the choices I made both good and not so bright are what make me who I am. I'm me because I took those paths. I ended up where I am because of those choices. And you know what? I don't regret being where I am. I'm not going to say my life is all sunshine and rainbows but its certainly better than it was but not as good as its sure to be in the future.

August 13, 2014

{His "Brother from Another Mother"}

Monday (the 11th) was an extremely exciting day for Gaige. As most of you know, Gaige is not D's biological son (although he might as well be). He is the product of a "relationship" I had when I was 18. His SD (sperm donor) has not been in his life since he was a little over a year old. He chose drinking and drugs over his kid, I chose my kid over a loser. It all worked out. Gaige is head over heels for D. Calls him dad and everything.

A few years ago I learned that SD had 2 more kids, I don't know why. I guess he thought the one he already wasn't supporting or having anything to do with at all wasn't enough. Either way, Gaige got another sister and brother out of the deal. Whom I figured he would probably end up meeting as an adult because SD had no intention of ever seeing him and I don't go to their town..ever lol.

But Gaige did know about them. I've never tried to hide anything from that side from him. I just put it into words that are acceptable for a kid his age (at whatever age he would ask about his SD).

Well as it turns out SD's mom and step dad are now caring for the little boy, Jr. Who is 7yrs now. And he wanted to meet Gaige really bad lol. So we set it up. And they did.


This is the only picture that was taken. I didn't want to be all up in their faces at their first meeting. After this one though, all bets are off lol.

They it it off really well! Gaige has been a big brother for a long time, so he knows the deal and he definitely took Jr under his wing. Those sodas they're drinking...Gaige bought them lol. By the time we were all ready to leave Gaige was asking both me and my grandma if Jr. could come home with us lol.

I'm quite sure these 2 will be very good friends :). I'm just glad they got to meet and that they have some kind of connection. There's no mystery anymore.

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{31 Day Blogging Challenge- Day 12}

Something that You Miss

I miss..being able to pee without someone knocking on the bathroom door. Or worse, coming in. Or maybe even worse than that, sitting on the stairs right outside the door waiting for me to finish. Try having a shy bladder and knowing someone is listening to everything you do in there. Impossible.

Owen before we moved to this house. Luckily the doors here go to the floor lol.

I miss going shopping and not having to second guess my decision because I know that if I spend that $10 on a shirt I'm going to need something for a kid the next day that will cost exactly that. That shit is annoying.

I miss nursing.


I miss this.


Do you see? Do you see how little Gaige was?? Oh my God. I'm seriously going to cry right now. :(

I miss this man.

My grandpa Dwight. I don't think there's a person he met that doesn't miss him now. It's weird how you never realize how important someone is the structure of a family until they're gone. It's like the whole family just kind of fell apart after he was gone. *sigh*

I miss getting to sleep until noon without fear of my house being burned down.

I think that's enough for the things I miss lol. 


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