I have been thinking about doing this since it happened. But I can't bring myself to make that video. I can't bring myself to talk about it most days. I was telling a woman at work about it the other day and almost had a melt down. It's still so fresh in my mind. Like it happened yesterday. I know people are going to think I'm insane. The it's just a dog saying comes out of peoples mouths a lot when I talk about it. I know my husband doesn't quite understand. He knows I'm upset, and he's upset because I'm upset, but he doesn't understand the big gaping hole that was once filled with this little furry creature. I know that losing a child is horrible, I watched a friend go through it. But I can't help but think, this is kind of what it must feel like. To lose something you've watched grow and learn and became a huge part of your family.
