{Wasting Breath}

I feel like every single word I say to Dawn is just me talking to a wall.

Last Wednesday I made a deal with her to try to improve her behavior both at home and at school.

I told her that for starters if she could go until that Friday without getting grounded at home or in trouble at school, she would get ungrounded. After being grounded for getting yet another detention for her behavior at school. She managed to make it to Friday so I kept my word.

I then told her that if she could make it until the next Friday (so 1wk) I would take her to get her nails done at a salon. She was super excited about that! And honestly so was I. We never get to do mother/daughter stuff because she is always in trouble. So this was something both of us could do and she could be rewarded for her good behavior.

Well yesterday I check my email and find one from her teacher. Dawn was being so disrespectful and just refusing to do things. She got mad because she couldn't get on her tablet for as long as she wanted to. She got mad because there were no computers free. It was just awful from what the email said.

So naturally I talked to her about it and because she got in trouble at school she isn't going to be allowed to get her nails done this weekend. I told her I was so disappointed in her and had she not behaved that way she would have just had to make it 2 more days. She was pretty upset but I was not going to reward her for getting in trouble again.

I told her that she would have to start her week over.

Also, I'm starting to wonder if she doesn't have some form of OCD. When her schedule gets messed up, she can not handle it. She gets all pissed off and often that's when she has her bad days. I know that doesn't excuse her bad behavior but it might explain it a little. Ya know?

Thoughts anyone?

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{ #weightwaters Week 7}

Well ladies, a loss is a loss. Even if it's only .4lb. So over all, since I started, I've lost 4lb. -.-

I'll take it though. It's not a gain and I didn't just maintain. Which annoys me to no end.

I am starting to see changes in my body though. D's sweats are getting too big for me. Not that they've ever really fit, but now they're starting to really hang off of me :) I have a pair of yoga pants that were too tight for me a month or 2 ago, and they're a little loose on me now :). Which is pretty awesome.

I still haven't started working out like I want to. I just can't handle doing it front of D or when he's somewhere to hear me. And by the time he goes to sleep it's almost time to pick up the kids. When he leaves for work, I'm ready to go to bed. I have no desire to work out at 10pm. Plus, it doesn't do anything anyway I'm told. Blah. As soon as it's warm enough I'll start walking again.

As long as I've lost a decent amount by the time we go on vacation. It will all be worth it :)

How is your weight loss going?

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{Youtube #tmi Tag}

This tag has been floating around YouTube for a while and I thought it looked fun...so here I go!!

QUESTIONS!
1: What are you wearing?
My grey tshirt and underwear. No pants. I am not a lover of pants lol.

2: Ever been in love?
Obviously.

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
I've had a few.

4: How tall are you?
5ft 7in

5: How much do you weigh?
More than I'd like to that's for sure.

6: Any tattoos?
I have 2! A Playboy Bunny in my bikini area and 'I love you' written in Ds hand writing on my right wrist :)

7: Any piercings?
Just my ears now but I have had my tongue and my bellybutton in the past.

8: OTP?
I honestly have no idea what that means lol.

9: Favourite show?
I watch way too much TV lol. Once upon a Time, walking dead, hart of Dixie, true blood, greys, and the Carrie diaries are just a few.

10: Favourite bands?
Backstreet Boys...are there other bands besides them? ;)

11: Something you miss?
Sleeping until noon because there was no one there to want anything from me.

12: Favourite song?
Everyone and Feels like home are 2 favorites. I also am addicted to Drink a Beer.

13: How old are you?
30

14: Zodiac sign?
Taurus

15: Quality you look for in a partner?
Sense of humor. Making me laugh is a great way to get me to notice you.

16: Favourite Quote? The couples who are meant to be are the ones who have gone through everything designed to tear them apart and they are still together. Or something along those lines.

17: Favourite actor?
Tom Hanks, Channing Tatum, Seth Rogen, Stephen Moyer...just to name a few.

18: Favourite color?
Pink!!

19: Loud music or soft?
Loud!!

20: Where do you go when you're sad?
My bedroom.

21: How long does it take you to shower?
As long as possible lol.

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
It depends on what I'm doing that day. If I'm going somewhere I might take 20min. If I'm not, 10min.

23: Ever been in a physical fight?
Yeah with my sister lol

24: Turn on?
A southern accent *drool*

25: Turn off?
Stupidity and a lack of common sense.

26: The reason I joined Youtube?
To post my videos of the kids.

27: Fears?
Something happening to my husband or my kids.

28: Last thing that made you cry?
Oh lord I dont know lol

29: Last time you said you loved someone?
Tonight when D was leaving for work.

30: Meaning behind your Youtube Name?
Just4CrazyKids...well I was counting the 4 kids we had at the time..and they are all crazy.

31: Last book you read?
I believe it was 50 shades ;)

32: The book you're currently reading?
I'm not :(

33: Last show you watched?
90 Day Fiance on TLC

34: Last person you talked to?
Owen

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
She's my grandma.

36: Favourite food?
Pizza!!

37: Place you want to visit?
Disney World!!!

38: Last place you were?
The living room.

39: Do you have a crush?
On Nick Carter...yes.

40: Last time you kissed someone?
I give kisses to my little all the time.

41: Last time you were insulted?
I don't remember

42: Favourite flavour of sweet?
Chocolate

43: What instruments do you play??
None.

44: Favourite piece of jewellery?
My wedding set.

45: Last sport you played?
Oh lord I couldn't even tell you. I haven't played a sport since PE in HS. Lol

46: Last song you sang?
Ummm...I don't remember. I was singing along with the radio when I was picking up little from school

47: Favourite chat up line?
I don't have one.

48: Have you ever used it?
N/A

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
I was with my sister on VDay :)

50: Who should answer these questions next? Everyone who reads this :)

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{ #weightwatchers Week 6}

OK girls I have got to get my eating under control. I'm having a very hard time staying within my points lately and it needs to stop. There for a while I was doing really well. If I went over it was only by a point or 2 but lately I'm using my extra points as a way to snack on unhealthy foods. Its no good :(

That being said I did have a loss this week. I'm down .6lb from last week which put me at 203.4. Meaning I've lost 3.6lb in a month and a half. This is no good either.

At this rate I will not meet my goal of 180 by the time we leave for vacation. I'm not happy about that at all.

And working out is near impossible. D doesnt go to bed until around 3pm these days and that's when the kids get home. If I want to work out I have to do it in front of him...and I hate that. I don't want someone watching me and while I do those workout dvds. Especially not when he says I'm doing something  wrong and tries to do it better than me. Which pisses me off and I just stop. Not very productive right?

This weather isn't helping any either. Normally I could walk down to the park with the kids or go on a bike ride or something. But it seems like winter is just never going to end this year. Blah.

I know I know! Stop making excuses lol.

How is YOUR weight loss going?

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{ #weightwatchers Week 5}

Well guys I got back on track this week and lost!! I was 205.2 (I think) last week and I am currently 204.0 :)

I need toremember to stay away from salty foods. That does me in every single time. So no more!!

I've also decided to step up my activity. After D goes to bed in the morning I'm going to attempt a couple work out DVDs I've got. I might turn to YouTube for a little Jillian Michaels too. We shall see. Any little bit of movement helps though right?

How is your weight loss going?

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{Now & Then}

Sometimes when I look at where we are now and where we were a few years ago...it makes me want to cry.

D has worked some shitty jobs for shitty pay and shitty hours over the last 10 years. We have had some pretty rocky moments in our relationship too.

For the longest time we were struggling so much and just couldn't get a break that I honestly thought this was how my life was going to be forever. A constant struggle to keep our heads above water.

Dont get me wrong, we never let the kids go without. Ever. Part of the reason D worked so hard was because we wanted to make a better life for our kids. If that meant working 3rds at ShopKo then he did it.

Up until 2yrs ago I didn't think we would ever get out of that crappy trailer we were living in. I wish I had taken pictures of just how ridiculously horrible that place was becoming. I thought for sure during a storm someday that it was just going to fall apart. And now look at us, we have our own house :).

Something that kind of bothers me though is that because we broke, even though they didn't go without, we couldn't buy Dawn and Gaige all the things that Owen has now. He gets a new toy or candy or something like that pretty much every time we go anywhere. I stop at the gas station on the way to pick him up from school and I usually grab him a slushie. I couldn't do that with the other 2. I didn't have the money to do that ever day. And they only got toys for birthdays and holidays. We sure didn't go down the toy aisle every time we got money and buy them a little toy. But we do that a lot with Owen.

I'm glad we are doing well now but I wish we could have done for the other 2 what we can do now for Owen.

I guess that's just how it works with the baby though right?

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{Today Didnt Suck}

This morning started off pretty crappy. I got up semi early and got little ready for school. We were doing good on time for the first time in a long time lol.

But then my luck took a nose dive and so did I. Our back porch is covered in snow and ice. Its not super slick but because the snow is covering the ice you can't really tell where it is. Blah. The joys of IL in the winter right?

So I'm holding on to little so he won't fall (cause he is scared shitless of falling on the ice after he did it once this year already), and I go to step off the porch but instead of hitting the step, I landed on a pile of snow. Of course I was on my knees 2 seconds later. And to top it all off I rolled my ankle while stepping into the snow. Ouch!

All this stressed little out. He just kept asking me if I was OK and then he asked if honey (which is what he calls D) was going to take him to school. Nope. I picked myself up and took him to school. I don't like to mess with his routine any more than I have to.

After taking him to school D and I headed to Costco where we were going to purchase our new TV. Which we didn't realize wasn't even open yet lol. It worked out for us though cause we ended up at Target and bought a TV there instead :). We got an Element 42” (it might be a 40). Brought it home and it looks pretty awesome on our wall :). I'll be glad when I don't have to look at the cords on the wall :/.

After that we headed to 2 different restores in search of a mantle to create our own fireplace. Neither had what we were looking for. As luck would have it though, craigslist did :). So I emailed a couple people about their ads on there. *fingers crossed* someone still has theirs.

Oh! And since the kids TV in the toy room is taking a crap (its crazy old) we are gonna put our old TV in there. The boys are gonna love being able to actually see their video games.

So there we have it. That was my day. How was yours?

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{ #weightwatchers week 4}

Uuuuugh. I had a gain this week you guys. I am so disappointed in myself. I was doing so good and really tracking and staying away from all the shitty food. But then I fell back into old habits and couldn't stop eating the wrong food.

I know where I went wrong though and I am fully prepared to really get a handle on this shit this week. I want to start working out too.

Working out in this house though is awful. Since D works thirds he's home during the day. Usually sleeping and our room is right off the living room. So unless I want to work out up stairs...which isn't a horrible idea, I won't do it. I get way too self conscience knowing he could come in and see my fat wiggling around. Its not a good motivation booster ya know? Does anyone else's husband work thirds and make it difficult for them them to work out?

Blah. Either way, I'm gonna drink more water this week and stay within my points. I think a lot of my problem was that I was allowing myself to use the "anytime" points during the week. I wasn't doing that the first 3 weeks. And that needs to not become a habit. I don't want to start thinking, oh well I have 49 more points I can use if I use all of my 33 in 1 meal :-\ . Which I pretty much did the other day at taco bell with that xxl nachos thing. *Sigh* Self control Kristing. Self Control.

So how is everyone else doing this week?

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{I am so Lazy}

The Christmas tree Gaige put up in the toy room, is still up. Why? Because I'm too lazy to go up there and take it down lol. I had Dawn go up there and take off the ornaments. But the tree itself is still plugged in and up. And when I went up earlier, I realized that "hey the bottom part of the tree is dark". So I think I might just chuck that one and put up another one up there next year. It'd save me 3 trips down to the basement. The baby tree I put out in the dining room is also still up with the ornaments and everything still on it. There's really no excuse for that, I just haven't taken it down yet lol. The lights on it have to go too because they blew out. Blah.

Those snow flakes I hung from the ceiling, those are still there too. *Sigh* D even brought in the ladder so that I can get it done. But no, the ladder is standing next to the front door, where its been for about a week. I keep saying I'm going to get it done, but I don't.

So this is my plan for tomorrow. I'm gonna go ahead and take down the tree up stairs and do whatever I need to with that. And put the baby tree in the tote downstairs. And lets not forget the snowflakes.

I also want to vacuum the living room and the dining room and mop all 3.

So I have a full day ahead of me tomorrow. I'm not excited about it.

What are your plans for tomorrow? 

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