May 14, 2013
May 12, 2013
{To my kids on Mothers Day}
To the one who started it all; I would not even be celebrating this day had it not been for you. When I found out I was pregnant with you I was scared out of my mind. And I continued to be scared...10 years later and you still scare me. Not because I don't know what I'm doing but because I don't ever want you to look back at your childhood and be disappointed with me. I am so thankful that God saw fit to make me your mom. I am so thankful that I get to spend the rest of my life watching you become the thoughtful, caring, smart, amazing person you are sure to be. So thank you for letting me be your mom...and for showing me that it is possible To fall completely in love with someone you just met.
Me and G meeting for the very first time.
The one I chose to love; I know that I didn't carry you for 9mo. But I have been there from the time you were barely 2. I have watched you grow into a very smart (all be it bossy) young lady. I taught you to tie your shoes and I was there when you finally learned to ride a bike. And I will be there when you go to your first dance and have your first boyfriend. I will be there when you experience your first heartbreak and when you get married. I know that I did not give birth to you but I don't consider you any less my kid than the 2 I did bring into this world. I love you...even though your attitude sometimes makes me want to run for the hills.
First picture of Drama Queen and I at a bday party for my great- grandmother.
To my smallest; Oh the fits you gave me when I was pregnant with you. The sickness and the swollen everything. But I was still so excited to finally meet you. When I held you the first time I just wanted to eat you up. Since you are going to be my last I wanted to keep you a baby for as long as possible...probably the reason I nursed you so long. My little booby monster. I love watching you grow up though. I love watching you become a little boy and the time we share is so special. I look forward to spending my days with you and cuddling you every single night to go to sleep. I love you five my little :).
A few hours after my little boy was born.
And while I'm at it, thank you D. Cause without you I wouldn't have 2 out of 3 of my kids. Without you...G wouldn't have a dad. And he does love you so much. And so do I.
Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers out there :).
May 11, 2013
{How Dare You!!}
This is for the pitiful excuse for a man that gave my son half his DNA.
HOW DARE YOU walk out on such an amazing kid.
HOW DARE YOU leave him wondering where you are and why you have no desire to be in his life.
HOW DARE YOU leave the people that do care about him here to pick up the pieces when he comes to realize the truth about you.
HOW DARE YOU make me have to lie to my son by telling him over and over you "just weren't ready to be a dad". When in reality you just couldn't handle being an adult and thinking of anyone hut yourself.
HOW DARE YOU tell anyone that you're 'ok' with D raising my son as his own. YOU have no say so in the matter. You forfeited that right when you walked away from him 10 years ago. So stop trying to make it sound like you gave me the OK and it was some mutual decision.
You are a sorry worthless PATHETIC excuse for a human let alone a father. You don't deserve the amazing smart kid that I created. You don't deserve to know him or for him to love you.
I can not even believe that you would make the choice not to be around this kid and I hope that when he's older and you're wanting a relationship with him..that he tells youbexactly where you can stick that idea. He has an amazing dad. One that is always there for him and makes sure he has everything he needs. You are simply the other half of his gene pool.
"I'm writing this after it was brought to my attention that G was seen crying at my grandparents house. When asked why he was crying he said he wants to know where his dad is. My son does not deserve to have to feel unwanted. Because he is very much wanted by all those that are in his life. This sperm donor he speaks of should not hold such a place in his mind. But he does. Probably because I've done what good mothers do and I've kept from him the truth about why his sperm donor isn't around. I kept that feom him because I don't want my feelings to cloud his judgment of him. And it kills me that he is hurting so much because of this jerkoff. The same jerkoff who took me to court for visitation and has still yet to be in the same room as my son cause he just blows him off. I have a feeling you'll regret this decision when you're old and he's grown and you want a relationship with him. You'll be the one that is hurting then. Cause I have jo doubt that he will tell you that he has a dad...the man who raised him. And that he wants nothing to do with you. Of course you'll blame it on me. But uou andbi we know the truth..don't we?"
{I'm a 90's Kid!}
I was a total 90's kid. I mean, I was 7 years old in 1990 and in 1999 I was 17. So yeah. I lived through it all. The bad fashion, the shows, the music. All of it. So when I saw Tracy and Stephanie do this tag, I had to do it. So here we go!
1. favorite tv show of the 90's
Early 90's it was Strawberry Shortcake & Rainbow Brite no doubt about it. I also watched David the Gnome and Gummy Bears, Duck Tales, and a bunch of others. I love cartoons lol. For regular shows a little later in the 90's I was watching Step By Step and Family Matters and Full House. Those were the main ones that I remember.
2. favorite toy of the 90's
Umm..I'm going to say Barbies.
3. favorite commercial
I don't think I had one. I hate commercials.
4. BSB vs. Nsync
Are you kidding?? Backstreet Boys all.the.way. Nick Carter...*swoon*
5. Weirdest fashion trend.
Stirup pants. I wore them..I did not enjoy them and I still don't know why the hell they were so popular.
6. favorite collectableI don't think I collected anything but Backstreet Boys stuff. Oh! I collected Barbie stuff lol.
7. favorite beanie babyI wasn't really a fan of beanie babies. I had a couple but I don't remember which ones.
8. How many tamagachi's did you go through?Just one. I got it for Christmas from my moms dad.
9. Favorite game console and game.Oh man, we had a lot of game consoles lol. We had a Nintendo at my parents house and I LOVED the original Mario Bros. game. We also had a Simpsons game that I played constantly.
10. Favorite disney channel original movie.I don't think I really watched the Disney Channel. So I don't know.
11. Favorite music artist of the 90's.New Kids on the Block in the early early 90's. Then it went on to Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera.
12. Favorite Nick Jr. showDavid the Gnome is one that I watched every single time it was on.
13. Favorite CandyMy grandparents own a gas station and every day after school (or sometimes before lol) we would stop there and get a candy bar or something. I never really had a favorite but I always got snickers. I also enjoyed Pay Days.
14. Favorite GameMy mom bought us a Disney Trivia game. Loved it!
15. Favorite McDonalds happy meal toyI didn't really have one I don't think.
16. Favorite Book.Early 90's I was 7 so my favorite book was 1 kitten is not too many, I read that book so much that I could recite it without even seeing the words on the page. Later I started reading Babysitters Club, Box Car Children, R.L. Stine books, Babysitters Club Little Sister. My mom also had this book called Secret Admirer. I read this book so many times the cover fell off. I still have by the way.
17. Favorite clothing storeWhen I was a kid I didn't have a favorite obviously. But later it was Wet Seal and Deb.
18. what did you watch when you got home from school?
I don't even remember lol. I do remember later on coming home and my brothers were watching Power Rangers. But we spent most of our time outside.
So there you have it folks. You should fill it out and leave a comment with a link to your post! :) Or you can just comment with your answers.
1. favorite tv show of the 90's
Early 90's it was Strawberry Shortcake & Rainbow Brite no doubt about it. I also watched David the Gnome and Gummy Bears, Duck Tales, and a bunch of others. I love cartoons lol. For regular shows a little later in the 90's I was watching Step By Step and Family Matters and Full House. Those were the main ones that I remember.
2. favorite toy of the 90's
Umm..I'm going to say Barbies.
3. favorite commercial
I don't think I had one. I hate commercials.
4. BSB vs. Nsync
Are you kidding?? Backstreet Boys all.the.way. Nick Carter...*swoon*
5. Weirdest fashion trend.
Stirup pants. I wore them..I did not enjoy them and I still don't know why the hell they were so popular.
6. favorite collectableI don't think I collected anything but Backstreet Boys stuff. Oh! I collected Barbie stuff lol.
7. favorite beanie babyI wasn't really a fan of beanie babies. I had a couple but I don't remember which ones.
8. How many tamagachi's did you go through?Just one. I got it for Christmas from my moms dad.
9. Favorite game console and game.Oh man, we had a lot of game consoles lol. We had a Nintendo at my parents house and I LOVED the original Mario Bros. game. We also had a Simpsons game that I played constantly.
10. Favorite disney channel original movie.I don't think I really watched the Disney Channel. So I don't know.
11. Favorite music artist of the 90's.New Kids on the Block in the early early 90's. Then it went on to Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera.
12. Favorite Nick Jr. showDavid the Gnome is one that I watched every single time it was on.
13. Favorite CandyMy grandparents own a gas station and every day after school (or sometimes before lol) we would stop there and get a candy bar or something. I never really had a favorite but I always got snickers. I also enjoyed Pay Days.
14. Favorite GameMy mom bought us a Disney Trivia game. Loved it!
15. Favorite McDonalds happy meal toyI didn't really have one I don't think.
16. Favorite Book.Early 90's I was 7 so my favorite book was 1 kitten is not too many, I read that book so much that I could recite it without even seeing the words on the page. Later I started reading Babysitters Club, Box Car Children, R.L. Stine books, Babysitters Club Little Sister. My mom also had this book called Secret Admirer. I read this book so many times the cover fell off. I still have by the way.
17. Favorite clothing storeWhen I was a kid I didn't have a favorite obviously. But later it was Wet Seal and Deb.
18. what did you watch when you got home from school?
I don't even remember lol. I do remember later on coming home and my brothers were watching Power Rangers. But we spent most of our time outside.
So there you have it folks. You should fill it out and leave a comment with a link to your post! :) Or you can just comment with your answers.
May 6, 2013
{♥ My Siblings}
My brother and his gf put together a little sibling night for us all :). It was such a good time! My siblings and I never get together like that. We are all pulled in different directions and if it's not a holiday, we don't usually see each other.
And you know I snapped a few pics :)
And you know I snapped a few pics :)
He thinks he is so funny!
My 2 brothers and their girlfriends.
Our chef for the evening. He was HILARIOUS.
I have never been to a Hibachi grill before. I was not excited about going honestly. I don't like sushi and I had convinced myself that it was going to be horrible because I also don't like to try new things. At the back of my mind I just said, "well, if it sucks there's a McDonalds across the street" lol. Yeah...I'm that person. But it turned out that you could eat something other sushi. And it was AMAZING. Seriously best food I've had in a long time.
I think a huge part of what it enjoyable was that our chef was hilarious. He just kept picking on my brother lol. It was too funny. We all loved it lol.
The best part of the whole night though was spending time with my 2 brothers cause I never get to see them. We were missing my sister though who had other plans before these were made.
Have you ever been to Hibachi grill? What did you think?
May 2, 2013
{My Netflix Queue}
Seeing SouthernBellJM do this, I thought it looked like a good idea :). So I went right to my netflix queue and what I saw was not surprising. If you're a mother it won't surprise you either.
In my queue I have...
The Adventures of Brer Rabbit
Dumbo which we have on dvd so I'm not sure why we have it in our queue lol
Tinkerbell also in our dvd collection
Oh lordy if I go through all the Disney movies I'll be here an hour. We also have Aristacats, Rescuers Down under, 2 more Tinkerbell movies, 2 Brave Little Toaster movies, and some other Disney ones.
What I want to know is where the hell are all of my movies?? Oh right, the children have taken over Netflix like they've taken over everything else in the house! Why Little Boy is upstairs right now watching Captain America for about the 20th time. *sigh*
I give up.
In my queue I have...
The Adventures of Brer Rabbit
Dumbo which we have on dvd so I'm not sure why we have it in our queue lol
Tinkerbell also in our dvd collection
Oh lordy if I go through all the Disney movies I'll be here an hour. We also have Aristacats, Rescuers Down under, 2 more Tinkerbell movies, 2 Brave Little Toaster movies, and some other Disney ones.
What I want to know is where the hell are all of my movies?? Oh right, the children have taken over Netflix like they've taken over everything else in the house! Why Little Boy is upstairs right now watching Captain America for about the 20th time. *sigh*
I give up.
April 30, 2013
{Didnt think you could fall in love with a phone}
I got my Galaxy s3 Saturday!! I am so in love with it I could die! The camera takes amazing pictures and it has a front facing camera also so that is a huge bonus. I can take pictures of myself again lmao! The OS is pretty good and a lot faster than my mesmerize (D took that one). I absolutely love that it zips from one app ti the next with the greatest of ease. I can also answer texts and such and get right back to what I was doing before I had to answer. I'm in love with all the apps I can get too that were not available to me before or that were but would lock up my phone or run too slow to bother attempting to use them. Its been a pretty good buy so far :).
Something I'm not in love with, however, is the keyboard. I had my mesmerize set ti the Android keyboard because I wasnt a fan of the Samsung one. This phone does not allow you to switch to another keyboard. It does have the swype feature already on it though. Not that I use it cause swype makes me feel stupid lol. But its nice to have if I ever decide otherwise. And I dont have to get used to a whole new keyboard if I want to use it.
So that's my little review of my new Galaxy s3. And for those wondering why I didnt just get the s4...I didnt want it lol. Im not one of those people that has to have the latest phone. I wanted this one a year ago and couldn't get it. Now I got the one I wanted :).
Now here is a pic I took of myself Sunday. There are no filters and I didnt change any of the settings before snapping. Below that is a pic of my awesome new case :).
April 24, 2013
{No. We are not under water}
I'm pretty sure I've been asked this at least 3 times today. Yes, we are in central IL, yes we live about 3 blocks from the river, no we are not floating. There you go.
If you are not aware of what I'm talking about, I shall inform you. The river is flooding/flooded. There is water pretty much everywhere. I have seen on the news where closer to Chicago (I think) they are getting it a lot worse but for my town, it's not that bad. D and I have taken some pics to show you how much the water has risen in the last week.
He took this one last week. This is a drive way/parking lot down by the river. On a normal day, you can drive through that. It's supposed to be dry.
Just last Sunday I took this one. As you can see, you can't even see the block where the sign is standing anymore and the sign itself is getting covered.
D was down there just this morning and he said that now this sign is pretty much totally covered. This is a record breaking level. The river hasn't been this high since the '40's. It's friggin' crazy! But never the less, we are not all floating...yet lol. It was supposed to crest today around 3pm and then it should go back down. *fingers crossed* Cause otherwise we are all in a world of hurt.
And now on to more pleasant things.
The teenager had her 16th birthday! It's crazy to think that D has a 16 year old. That we just met last year. *sigh* Anyway- her mother planned a party at Jillians Sports Grille so we all met up there. It was a good time :). The kids had fun.
Walmart got that cake all wrong. But it was pretty good anyway :).
So there you have it. My laptop just told me that I've got 10% battery left and I don't want to get up to plug it in, so that's all the time I have to update ya'll right now :). Don't forget to check me out on facebook and instagram! :)
If you are not aware of what I'm talking about, I shall inform you. The river is flooding/flooded. There is water pretty much everywhere. I have seen on the news where closer to Chicago (I think) they are getting it a lot worse but for my town, it's not that bad. D and I have taken some pics to show you how much the water has risen in the last week.
D was down there just this morning and he said that now this sign is pretty much totally covered. This is a record breaking level. The river hasn't been this high since the '40's. It's friggin' crazy! But never the less, we are not all floating...yet lol. It was supposed to crest today around 3pm and then it should go back down. *fingers crossed* Cause otherwise we are all in a world of hurt.
And now on to more pleasant things.
The teenager had her 16th birthday! It's crazy to think that D has a 16 year old. That we just met last year. *sigh* Anyway- her mother planned a party at Jillians Sports Grille so we all met up there. It was a good time :). The kids had fun.
Walmart got that cake all wrong. But it was pretty good anyway :).
So there you have it. My laptop just told me that I've got 10% battery left and I don't want to get up to plug it in, so that's all the time I have to update ya'll right now :). Don't forget to check me out on facebook and instagram! :)
April 15, 2013
{A case of the wants}
Since D said that I can get my new S3 next week (I know..spoiled) I have been looking on amazon for cute cases! That's the only thing I absolutely hate about my current phone, there are just no cases for it. And that is annoying.
Here are some I like (in case someone reading this wants to get me one for my birthday lol)
Here are some I like (in case someone reading this wants to get me one for my birthday lol)
Those are just a few. I'm gonna buy the pearl and the minnie mouse one. :)
April 13, 2013
{Relaxing Saturday}
D and I had the most relaxing laid back Saturday we've had in a long time. The teenager went off with her boyfriend about noon so D and I were kid free. Which happens often but not often enough lol. So I got dressed and we headed to Target for starters. He needed new shirts cause all of his are stained or too small. He ended up with two. Oddly enough I didn't get anything. Which he pointed out by saying "I can't believe you haven't found anything to put in the cart yet" lol. He knows me so well. But honestly I didn't need anything cause we went yesterday and got it all. I was going to head to Ulta and use the $10 to get a couple new nail polishes. But then I decided against it. I have so many bottles of all kinds of polish right now that it's ridiculous. I need to get one of those racks that so many people have for their polishes. I should look for some.
Anyway- after Target we were off to the antique mall. Oh man, that place was huge. Some of the booths had some amazing stuff and some of it was just crap. There were a lot of high chairs, baby buggies, and cribs that's for sure. But I also saw a lot of dishes and these really trippy 60's style canisters (for flour, sugar, ect) with mushrooms on them. Then we found this amazing antique stove. I'm going to guess it's from the '40's or '50's. It was a lot like this one, except it had a cover over the burners and they were in the middle. I didn't take a picture of it cause I didn't know if that would be OK and the people were standing right there lol. I didn't wanna get in trouble. But it was about $400. I told D I wanted it so bad but he said he didn't trust that it was safe. It said that it works well but one of the little heat vents were melted lol. So we figured that it probably got too hot and probably caught on fire or something. I don't know. I was really wanting it though. We also found an antique fridge and a chest freezer! Gah! We decided that I was born in the wrong era. I love anything before the 60's seriously. I love the fashion and the furniture. Should have been born in the 40's I guess lol.
After the antique mall we headed to the US Cellular store. I have been wanting a new phone for a while. I don't need one. I love my phone! It's a Galaxy S Mesmerize. But when I went in to get the phone I have I originally wanted the Galaxy S3.
But we didn't have enough points and honestly it was like $400. So I went with the phone I have now. I have basically been watching the S3 since and I knew that when they put out an upgrade for that phone, that it would go way down in price. And it did :). So we are gonna get me one in 2 weeks when he gets paid again! Weeeee! I'm so excited I could pee! I've already been on amazon looking at awesomely cute phone cases lol.
We are now home, in our sweats. We stopped at Taco Johns for dinner of course...cause that place is awwwwwesome! And we watched a movie called The Awakening. It was good. See it. It's on Netflix.
Tomorrow The teenagers mom and I are going shopping for her 16th birthday cake.
So how is your weekend going so far? :)
Anyway- after Target we were off to the antique mall. Oh man, that place was huge. Some of the booths had some amazing stuff and some of it was just crap. There were a lot of high chairs, baby buggies, and cribs that's for sure. But I also saw a lot of dishes and these really trippy 60's style canisters (for flour, sugar, ect) with mushrooms on them. Then we found this amazing antique stove. I'm going to guess it's from the '40's or '50's. It was a lot like this one, except it had a cover over the burners and they were in the middle. I didn't take a picture of it cause I didn't know if that would be OK and the people were standing right there lol. I didn't wanna get in trouble. But it was about $400. I told D I wanted it so bad but he said he didn't trust that it was safe. It said that it works well but one of the little heat vents were melted lol. So we figured that it probably got too hot and probably caught on fire or something. I don't know. I was really wanting it though. We also found an antique fridge and a chest freezer! Gah! We decided that I was born in the wrong era. I love anything before the 60's seriously. I love the fashion and the furniture. Should have been born in the 40's I guess lol.
After the antique mall we headed to the US Cellular store. I have been wanting a new phone for a while. I don't need one. I love my phone! It's a Galaxy S Mesmerize. But when I went in to get the phone I have I originally wanted the Galaxy S3.
We are now home, in our sweats. We stopped at Taco Johns for dinner of course...cause that place is awwwwwesome! And we watched a movie called The Awakening. It was good. See it. It's on Netflix.
Tomorrow The teenagers mom and I are going shopping for her 16th birthday cake.
So how is your weekend going so far? :)