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I am the worst at sticking to things. The worst. I know why its so hard for me but what I don't know is how I let myself get back here. It's almost 2yrs since I started this journey and if I would have just stuck with it in the first place I would be at my goal or close to it by now. What's wrong with me??
I have been tracking. I track every day. My chooses are just...awful. I'm really not trying as hard as I was when I did this the first time and its obvious. I have to make myself want this as much as I used to. I have to get my brain back to that space but its not happening.
I remember when I was first losing weight and others were starting to tell me they could see a difference. My grandpa (whom I miss every single minute of every single damn day) dropped off some things to me and mentioned how proud he was of me for taking control (not in those exact words) and how good he thought I looked. I don't want to disappoint him. And I want to get back to the place I was then.
I really wish my head could just tell my stomach to shut the hell up when it says it hungry any more. Or when I'm going back for my third bowl of chili.
I am such a failure. I make these posts and u make promises to myself but I don't follow through. Ever. I just want the will to change.
*sigh*
Woo hoo I am medically cleared to return my life!! Because I've been patiently waiting to get that news and all. I have not already returned to said life.
You all know I'm lying through my teeth. I've been pretty much full throttle since I was able to walk without my crutches. But its nice to know that the doctor says I'm good.
In fact, he said that I was a fast healer and that he's surprised I'm not in any pain for just three months out of surgery. But guess what doc? I have three kids. Life had to get back on track and fast.
But yeah. So that's the update for that fun little doctor visit. Now I just have all this ankle hardware to deal with for the rest of my life lol.
Note to self: Do not move chairs down the stairs on your own. Make husband do it.
It has been a long road since March. I've been in pain, scared, cut open, gotten hardware, and been immobile. I've come to appreciate being able to do anything for myself. Not to mention get out of the house whenever I want. But we are finally coming to an end of the journey to recovery.
I have another week in the boot officially, but as yesterday I'm only wearing it when I leave the house. Not quite comfortable enough with my muscles to take it off outside. But I am excited to finally do that.
I'm in pretty much no pain now. It gets sore if I'm on it for longer than I should have been. But for the most part nothing I need a Tylenol for.
I've started driving also! Which is my favorite part! I've missed being able to leave the house whenever I want. And its annoying to have to wait for someone to be ready to take you somewhere. Especially when you feel ready to do it yourself.
I decided not to go ahead with physical therapy. I just don't feel its needed and my mobility is pretty good. I've really pushed myself to get back to normal. I don't like depending on someone else to do the things I should be doing. That I've been doing for 12yrs.
I think that's the extent of my update. I'm on the right track for getting out of the boot and back to my life! Maybe I'll even be able to get on the bike soon! Woohoo!
I saw on Instagram today that someone had started the year by giving up one thing every month. I decided to try this out. But instead of just giving up the item, I am going to replace it with a good habit.
So for March I am going to attempt to cut out soda and replace it with water. I am getting tired of soda anyway to be honest. But I get headaches if I don't have it. I also get cranky. Which tells me I depend on it way too much. I am going to try my hardest to drink a 52oz jug of water every day.
I see a lot of trips to the bathroom in my future.
I know that giving up soda won't help my weight loss too much. I've given it up in the past and lost little to nothing. But I did have more energy and wanted to kill someone a little less. We shall see what happens this time around.
Is anyone else trying this? Giving up a bad habit and replacing it to a new one.
Also, I gained this week for my weigh in. I know what the problem is. I'm correcting it.
